ahh. I'm not emo. :)

i have to say, i'm not feeling emo now, just.. i'm really tired.


Have been studying for days. Err. Its going to be 2 weeks including the current week.

Seriously i need God. I mean, yeah, I need extra strength. I feel weak now. Great thing is God assigned angels beside me whenever i'm at my bottleneck.


Well, being considering whether to join the disciple class at church, I asked confirmation from God. I think its God's will that he answered my request. So.. i'll just have peace in mind and go ahead.


Although i didn't show it out, deep in my heart i'm sooooo worry about the coming exam. I felt helpless, err not, i mean, exhausted. Wish to study but could not get myself in the best condition. Will try my best in it, and get good result :) Aim high, work hard, study smart.

:(

stressed out. hmmm. maybe have been giving myself too much pressure.

well sometimes i just felt like things changed a lot. Friends changing, i myself am changing as well. The world is dynamic.


Had a really tiring day studying at campus. Not going to spend much time on FB for the week. So.. all the best in my exam...

An enjoyable and tiring day

Well, early in the morning, i broke my mirror, and for the first time in my life, going out without looking at the mirror. Woah i'm so brave and felt proud of myself because i combed my hair without a mirror :p


After church, went to have "brunch" with church members which i also enjoyed myself quite a lot in the fellowship of God's family. Watched a movie as well, washed my eyes with tears. :') I'm going to find the movie and share it with my parents. Hopefully this could make closer the relationship among my family members :) Its so true.


Recovered from car sickness and its Time for studies. Though i had studied. To be precise, time to memorize the theories~ hmm.
Wish me luck :)

:)

hmmmm well i have to say its better to be frank :)

Things are gonna be solved easier by communicating well.

SIGHHHHS i'm sooo reluctant to study for moral exam but i have to, for i don't wanna fail the subject.


So, well, wish me luck. >.<


Somehow i'm tired. hahaha :) nothing is bothering me right now. I have to say. hahaha

压力 :'(

突然觉得很无助


考试的压力， 一度把我压得喘不过气来。


睡眠， 在考试逼近的时候， 是一种奢侈品，
想要拥有，却不能拥有。

莫名的想大哭一场，却欲哭无泪。

无论如何，
我相信，
我姑且相信，
我会没事的。

Another boring day

ahh. facing the monotonous books full of theories and concpets for me to digest. Having indigestion and Malnutrition.


I'm sick of studies. But i knew that it is my responsibility to do well in it as my parents have invested. :p


Well, the world is dynamic. -Management. haha. Its all about managing in a turbulent world by using planning, organising, leading and controlling. XD


err.. went to praise and worship night and also prayer meeting, again. Woah. Never been so devoted that i attended 2 prayer meetings in a week. Maybe, i should spend some time with God.


After that, had a loooooooong chat with my friend. Time flies. Just pray that i could concentrate in my studies and absorb what i've studied... goodnight~ :)

Err.. Feeling bad? :x

Well, have been studying for few days, and were not really productive. >.<

Sigh. hmmm.

I witnessed the power of gossips. Whatever it is, i'll not give any comment.


I can feel the exam stress now. How how i feel helpless. Only then i realized that i have abandoned God. I do believe in God, but i think i need to lay all my burden on Him. Lets try.
After some rest its gonna be my study time. Wish me luck. I don't wanna be distracted.

i'm sentimental :p

Had minor homesickness these few days. Hmmmmph. I wanna go homeeee i cant stand miri's kampung style boring life as there's only limited choices of food. Sick of it. duhhh but i'm too exhausted for a cooking. How how how. oh no~


by the way.. i suddenly thought of what my senior 3 form teacher used to say.. stay calm, be humble. Yes exam's around the corner and there's no point of being nervous. Should stay calm and try my best in the exam :)


ahh i could not absorb busines law, but i know that i should strive for it, i want good results.
Glad that there's a friend who's always beside me and guide me. At least, when i saw all my friends starting to study, i got the motivation. This is what we called 'peer pressure'? Positive peer pressure i think :)



have a nice day~ :)

exam exam exam

time flies, its almost te end of one semester.
hmm..learnt a lot of things within the months.



Knew that the world is dynamic.
Nothing is stationery.
People changes, thing changes, so am i.


Got to experience God's love in the church. They are so friendly and caring.
Somehow, i'm surprised that church members can befriend with pastor, it was like.. hmmph LOW POWER DISTANCE lol. :DD


Enjoyed sports a lot, especially badminton and frisbee, got to meet new friends, narrow the distance between new friends, and also forget about the monotonous studies :DD


Gonna try hiking soon. :) i <3 badminton


I'm sick of chicken rice argh. Count down going back to my hometown haha :p minor homesickness. XD


wee~ hmm. Study time, gonna stop here for my day.

life - 22052011

i write, for i feel like writing.
Think i have to write constantly so that i won't lost touch with english writing and struggle when doing assignment. hahaha.


Yesterday had a luxurious and enjoyable nap for 2 hours, resulting in an energetic me until i could not fall asleep until 2.30am.
Had video call with my dear friend for 4.30hours.Enjoyed myself a lot chatting with her <3
Woahh. Proud of myself that i could still manage to wake up at 7am. :D


Final is approaching, argh. And i'm so not having the mood for study. Wherever my mind is, i shall pull it back and start my study from now on. hmmmph.


Nothing special, met new friends at church after being an active member, which is a good thing, after finding out something about my friends here. I mean, i'd only keep what i heard, and be careful, not to get myself manipulated by others. Besides, expanding my friend list.

Honestly i enjoy meeting new friends. To be precise, quality friends. :) hahaha. well i know everyone does.


Actually i don't quite understand how quality friends should be, but i'll just follow my instinct :) If i feel that you're nice, then most probably you're a nice person, unless you're pretending in front of me. That's up to you. hmmmph. Just that i'm not going to tell everyone about my worries, even my parents. Big girl huh.. have to handle things by my own :)



Got sick for the past few days, vomitted and slimmed down, YAYY HAHHAHAA.
Well, i always get sick when the assignment due date's approaching.LOL.
Knowing that i should take good care of myself, i decided to go for badminton with church member later :D

Another thing to say is.. i usually appear to be cheerful in facebook. However, in blog, this is how a person i actually was. Sometimes you'd see the exactly opposite from my FB. hahaha. If you got to know that i have a blog, you're lucky because i trust you and i'm willing to let you know the actual me ;)


have a nice day~ for both of you and me :D

I'm not impressed

I don't mind if you dislike me.

Tell me, if you have the guts.

I thank you for your help these few months,
Thank you for driving me home,
Thank you for teaching me econs and accounts.
NICE to meet you since primary school.

I complimented you in front of others, what i got in return?

Never mind, you'll regret.

I won't do things as you did, as God want me to forgive.

Just pray that i have the strength to overcome all these, together with my stresses from my studies.

I have to say, people nowadays are pretty good at make ups. Covering your face perfectly that people could not see you properly.


Great huh. I hate you, today. Tomorrow onwards don't dare to ask me anything. I won't give you even a glance.

My day

Was sooo depressed few days ago. Think it was because of the continuous strikes of my marks and also feeling tired for the fund raising event.


I had nearly lost myself.
However, i felt much better now, after going to church, and had cell group, then had supper and chatting, sharing at KFC together with few of the cell group members until 12.10am. HAHAHA.
God heals me.I felt much better after hearing to other's situation and knew that i should be grateful.
Things are not that bad, perhaps? :)

One of the member in cell group told me that church friends are always willing to share and care each other. This made me felt better as well because i've been wondering whom to trust in this new environment. To be honest, I still don't quite understand my new friends well.


Hmm. Some clarification here.
What i meant is, at least, i knew that i could seek for God's help, and there's someone to listen to me. I shall still learn to grow stronger. Not to depend on others always.
Duhhhh its not easy to stay cheerful and optimistic when the situations are not desirable.


So.. i need God's help, as well as quality friends :)
I shall try my best in my studies and also learn to solve my own problems, and also improve my managing skills in both time and money and emotion (without piano) :)



Cheers~ wish me luck :)

Uni life part 2

Sometimes, I felt like uni life's sooo interesting, however sometimes i felt the opposite.

I felt like i'm a weirdo. hahah :p

Hmmmph. Gotta start blogging again. Perhaps this could improve my english writing skills? :)


Met a number of friends in uni, however, i'm not sure whether they are quality friends. It might be my problem but i still felt that its better to be careful with my words and actions as we will never know what's in other people's mind, which their thoughts or impression on us might silently kills? Sounds simple while complicated. hah. These were just some advices from my friends. I'll keep it, while accept everything with an opened mind. However the fact is, i do had enjoyable moments cooking, eating,talking, laughing, playing and hanging out with friends.



Finally done with all the assignments and management presentation. Now its time to focus on final.
Sad thing is that i failed my Business law, which was the only subject that i ever failed for the time being. This might not be anything great, but for me, used to be a perfectionist, it is considered as a huge strike on me. Have to study hard for my final, so that i'd not disappoint my parents.

Staying in a village-like place which the infrastructures aren't well constructed, poor wireless signals, no shopping malls and cold storages and boutiques and japanese food etc in walking distance, i've learnt to live life simple. HAHAHA. Kampung senadin.What we need to do is to learn to make our life fun and interesting in such a jungle.


here are the things which i hope to cultivate :)


i HAVE TO
~ be aware of my words and actions
~ be hardworking
~ get rid of my laziness
~ have more self control
~ be optimistic
~ learn not to be a perfectionist, but to make imperfections perfect. :)
~ smile often
~ talk more
~ learn to express myself



sighhh talked about expressing myself. I desperately need a piano. Music is the best way expressing myself.ahhhh.


Could not think of anything else to write. I wantttt a camera to capture every pleasurable moments :)


Experienced so much things within the 3 months here. Ahh. Its almost 1am now, good morning~