$$$ money $$$

 

Its time to prepare for further studies.

At first, my dream was to study at European countries, after that, i changed my mind to cheaper countries because cant afford..

Lastly, it changed to local universities. ALL THESE IS BECAUSE OF THE CRUEL REALITY.

i know that it was a luxurious dream, so i gave it up.

Now, i just hope that i can enter some universities with good reputations, in the other word, (local branded universities).

That’s the main aim that i studied hard at all times. If i could get an offer, I’ll try my very best even cracking my head towards the wall to think over the ways to solve the financial problems.

Anyone can tell me how to apply for a study loan or scholarships as well?

Both scholarships in malaysia or western countries will do..

this is kind of annoying.

I’m not that genius to get a scholarship, and those who are genius are RICH.

I’m neither GENIUS nor RICH.

I’m ordinary.

but then i want to try my best to change it.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

oh no exams over !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I FEEL CRAZY :D:D:D

ah ~~

nth to say actually. exam's over.. but just feeling like to sleep. i love sleeping :D

sharing?

崇正之夜过去了，大家也都玩得相当尽兴，节目得到好评是大家长时间以来付出的心血。


今天，纯粹是有感而发。



在崇正的最后一次崇正之夜表演，不知为何就让我感觉到时间过得很快。这些年来在合唱团里学到不少东西，彻底提升了自己。真不知自己毕业后是否放得下这一切。今年，有了许多突破。
～合唱进决赛，误打误撞进到，还得了第四名。
～设计一个舞台（虽然做得不是很好，也是个学习）
～没带歌谱在大台上弹琴，完全挑战了我的胆量
～设计展览的布告板　


对我来说，这些都是非常值得回忆的。感谢老师，感谢高三仁，感谢朋友的帮助。



是的，时间是过得很快，另一个角度来说，就快七月尾了，十月统考，自己却完全没有心理准备，尤其数学与经济学为最让我担心的科目。其次是商业学，华语，会计学。



统考后就差不多毕业了。毕业在即，我却连自己人生方向都还没找到，心里十分彷徨。开怀大笑，有时只是一种掩饰，或者让自己暂时忘却这一切。开心一下，精神会比较放松，才能更专注于必须做的每件事。



现在，我会先专注在学业上。只希望自己能考好成绩，也祈祷自己可以尽快找到未来的方向。
是时候，奋斗，努力，向前冲！　



祝福我天天开心～

holiday..

it's holiday..
was over-stressed for the past few months..
this coming semester gotta be really busy..


now it's holiday and i still need to rush to pass up all the homeworks by 21 june.




i have told myself..
i wanna complete each day's homework the day it's assigned.
means to say, holiday is holiday.
thn i can concentrate on piano and rest well,do anything of my choice.
hopefully i could make it..


well, our school's final singing competition is around the corner, and surprisingly our class entered final..
but the problem is, there's 2 more weeks left.its on 3rd july.
OUR CLASS IS NOT EVEN DETERMINED TO PRACTICE.
i hate to lead. well, maybe i'm not a good leader or what.
None of you seemed have the mood for practice.



If we're not doing well,what's the point to get in final..?
no teamwork at all. some of you are even not any cooperative.
THIS MADE ME FEELING LIKE WANNA GIVE UP.



no matter what it is, i don;t care..
hopefully things will change. Just hopefully.



one week's holiday past. There's still one week left.
A holiday of homework. sigh.
And piano pieces too.. most of it are accompaniments. my goodness....



Besides all this, i think i need to go out and have a break.
Feeling like have many things to buy.
Mayb i gained FATS not weight. I need to buy a pair of new jeans,some blouses and t-shirts, Dress for sure, and i really need a bag!!!! all of my bags are broken :(
i need some sport /casual pants also.. adui.
i WANT TO WEAR SHIRTS THAT ARE ---> simple,comfortable, nice and casual.




hohoho. that's all. wish me luck in completing my hmwks and wish everyone,including myself HAVE AN ENJOYABLE SCHOOL HOLIDAYYYY :)

ACHIEVEMENTS vs HAPPINESS

How come secondary life seemed so stressful for me.
I'm not even feeling happy MOST OF THE TIMES.
I do admit that i gave myself really high expectations, but i just could not do well.
I wished to get EXCELLENT results, but I found out that i didn't even understand what am i studying for the time being.



Well, i'm extremely POOR in MATH.
I've put my effort in it. But what did i get?
The teacher even said that i did not pay attention in class, and i SIMPLY do the test paper without thinking.


So what. My math standard is just in Junior 2. Means to say i have to leave now?
Math doesn't represent everything isn't it?



DEAR TEACHER, YOUR WORDS DO HURTS ME. IT HAVE CAUSED ME LOSING MY CONFIDENCE IN STUDY.
i just wanna say, i cares about math.
Just that i'm stupid...maybe..if to be measured with your genius math brain.


Wondering that is that the right choice to stay for SENIOR 3.
Now i can't even force myself to study or do homework, but still, there's expectations.


Nobody forced me, i'm the one who forced myself so much.
I'm crazy rite?


I like to play piano, i like arts, but i'm not good enough in it.
I wanna stay an IDEAL life. Thts my dream.With my litttle talent in piano and art, my dream could not be reached.


Now, tuitions brought tiredness for me, but i need it as well, to get good result. not necessary good, but at least a little bit better.HOW????



And.. i just don't understand how come i just cant make myself happy.I mean, happiness is just a temporary relieve for me. I can laugh now but get moody in the next 30 minutes. yeah. i'm abnormal,maybe.



i'm trying not to stress myself so much. WISH ME LUCK.

smth special

its cake! unbelievable~~